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[stilldontgotit]

[Today, Riku is bored. Bored and curious. What does this mean? Well, listen and find out!]

The Malnosso claim they're trying to find a way back to our worlds, and the experiments are their way of doing it. Now, apparently they're just as stuck as we are.

So, they force us through everything from species changes to mind control and act like it's alright. Even throw out a few missions for us to get prizes. That's ignoring the fact that they send us out to war.

Here's what I want to know. How many of you guys believe it? Better yet, does anyone here actually trust them?

Just wondering.

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[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Well, I guess love really can achieve all things. [ Why can't I hold all of this sarcasm. ]

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Yeah, like heartache and headaches.

[Pardon him if he sounds a bit bitter here.]

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Headaches? Why headaches?

[ she is rather confused by the sudden inclusion of headaches, but she thinks he may be referring to the sudden fall out or awkwardness or stress the situation could create. ]

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Stress, for one.

[And THINKING. ...and yeah, fall outs for sure.]

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Oh, I thought you meant the event itself caused something to give you a headache. Like you were so caught up you just began to get headaches if you didn't think of them.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

The experiment messed with my head, so I thought I'd always felt that way.

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Hm. I guess to have your memories permanently altered like that would be upsetting and headache inducing.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

It was only temporary, but...

[It did lead to something he thought would last a good while. Boy was he wrong.

He sighs.]

It's complicated.

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

[ Tenten lowers her head a bit in sympathy. She doesn't want to press him but she figures it'll help him to talk about it. ]

Wanna get it off your chest?

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[On one hand, complicated and personal. On the other, explaining it might help.

What to do?]

You sure about that?

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Why not? I have all the time in the world here. [ She reclines and pulls up a glass of tea because she can tell it'll take awhile. ]

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[Sigh. What's he got to lose?]

Let's just say I haven't had the best experiences with romance. Spending months trying to pick up the pieces only for things to fall apart again is... pretty rough.

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[projectiled.livejournal.com]

So, you try to get someone, and you get them, but it falls apart and then when you piece it back together, you end up where you started?

Hm, yeah, chasing after the same thing only to be let down time and time again is a little discouraging. [ She experienced it the same thing with her dream to become like Tsunade, but she can't imagine that with a concept where you can't really compromise your goal like love. ]

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

And the whole thing started because of that experiment, so it's just a huge reminder of how it fell apart.

[In short, he's bitter about it. While it's not the same as a life goal, pain is pain, even if it is emotional.]

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[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Jesus, it sounds like you've been through a lot. Whatever happened to this person? Are they still here so there's still a shot? Or have they left?

[ She sympathizes with him. She wished he'd get a break every now and then. He seemed like a nice guy. ]

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

She's still here, but with she's somebody else now.

Not like it bothers me at this point, but it was still rough.

[And it's not like it was all her fault, either. Riku acknowledges his faults.]

pretend I have a sad icon for her...

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Hm. You know, there's no shame in losing in things like these. There are people out there that can probably give you the respect, dedication and love you deserve. It's just up to you if you want to seek it or not.

[ She isn't sure what to say at this point since she's never loved before but she'll just borrow lines from all of those other kunoichis. It takes a bit of processing to decide which line goes where, hence an awkward pause, but she seems to pull it off without any indication that she's inexperienced with this field, except for the pause. Ninja ARE supposed to deceive after all. ]

Can do!

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Maybe, but I wonder if it's worth giving it a second shot. Risking another screw-up that'd send me back where I started.

[It's funny because Riku didn't give up when it came to his darkness, and yet with love... he's so wary. It's an ironic contrast.]

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Well, sometimes you have to try again and again until you get it right. If I gave up any major ambition in my life over one tiny failure, I'd never grow. Then again, if I kept on going without making any mistakes, I wouldn't be growing from that either. Mistakes are frustrating, but, then again, they help me improve, and I can certainly say any of my previous failures won't be happening again because I learned from them.

[ She doesn't know about Riku's darkness but she sure as hell is plucky enough to make up for that. ]

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Usually I wouldn't give up so soon; it doesn't solve anything, and I can't move forward unless I take the first step.

I'm not expecting to undo my mistakes or anything. Just don't want to risk making the same ones again.

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

True. Right now, you're only delaying a chance to find a wonderful solution. You won't be making the same mistakes again if you're this cautious of it, you know.

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[Give him a second. This... is also a good point.

Is he being a coward? Is he willing to set aside his pride and admit it?]

You really think it's worth it?

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

Of course I do. Anything that makes you happy and doesn't affect the safety of others is worth pursuing at least.

[ She offers a small giggle here. Silly Riku! She didn't think she'd have to explain this. ]

[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[Man, she does have a point. Riku laughs, a bit drly, and sighs.

Funny how it's easier to talk about this to a stranger.]

... Thanks. Guess I'll just have to quit stressing over the past, huh?

[projectiled.livejournal.com]

[ Tenten's very easy to talk to in this case, with her sensibilities. ]

That should work. The past is the past for a reason. If there are opportunities to move on, they're there for a reason. If you want, I can read your fortune about these things! I wouldn't mind it at all!