stilldontgotit: (uncertainty)
Riku ([personal profile] stilldontgotit) wrote2011-05-19 07:06 pm

39 - voice/action;

Man. It's been two years since I first got here... Kind of hard to believe.

It's pretty crazy to think about. I've seen people leave on a daily basis. Even I did, but it was just a week.

[He sighs.]

Heck, I remember when this place didn't have electricity or a battle dome. It really has changed a lot.

[But he's just getting off track. He pauses for about a minute before he tosses up a quick filter:]

Filtered from Xion, Axel, and Roxas//100%

But there's something else I want to talk about. Anyway...

[Ugh.]

What do you do if someone forgives you, but you don't want that forgiveness? What are you supposed to say to that?

[Or... he hesitates--]

Or better yet... how do you just let go?

[He won't mention who he's talking about, but those who know him should be able to guess.

Anyway, once that's done, Riku's going to hang out at the bridge around house 14. Just because it's close and away from the business in the center of town. And that's good right about now because he's got a lot on his mind. He has for a while now, it's just gotten more complicated lately.]

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
It can when you're jealous of that person.

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
Even then. Actually, it's more important that you don't reject it then, right?

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
But how can I accept it when I haven't moved on?

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
How can you not accept it, Riku?

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-05-23 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
Because...

[Sigh.]

Look, some things aren't that simple.

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-05-23 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
Yes they are. If you don't accept it, you're being rude to the person who forgives you.

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-05-25 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
I know that. It's selfish, but I can't exactly help it.

[Because he's jealous and resentful, and it's hard to just ignore that.]

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-05-25 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
...So you know it's selfish?

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-05-25 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
How could I not? I'd be an idiot if I said otherwise.

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-05-25 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
It's easy to forget that... um, but do you want to know another secret?

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-06-01 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
...It's okay to be a little jealous, and it's okay to not feel your best. But the big secret is that if you can accept those, then you might be able to move past it, right?

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-06-01 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. But it's not like it'll happen overnight.

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-06-02 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
These things take time. It's not that easy to forget or move forward, even if you know you should.

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-06-02 10:45 pm (UTC)(link)
What if you just believed that it didn't take the time though?

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-06-03 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes it takes a lot to change someone's mind.

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-06-03 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
But you're changing your own mind.

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[identity profile] stilldontgotit.livejournal.com 2011-06-04 02:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, but you can say that you'll change your mind and still have trouble. These things take time.

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[identity profile] hazelrink.livejournal.com 2011-06-04 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
But believing you can is the first step, Riku.