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[stilldontgotit]

Man. It's been two years since I first got here... Kind of hard to believe.

It's pretty crazy to think about. I've seen people leave on a daily basis. Even I did, but it was just a week.

[He sighs.]

Heck, I remember when this place didn't have electricity or a battle dome. It really has changed a lot.

[But he's just getting off track. He pauses for about a minute before he tosses up a quick filter:]

Filtered from Xion, Axel, and Roxas//100%

But there's something else I want to talk about. Anyway...

[Ugh.]

What do you do if someone forgives you, but you don't want that forgiveness? What are you supposed to say to that?

[Or... he hesitates--]

Or better yet... how do you just let go?

[He won't mention who he's talking about, but those who know him should be able to guess.

Anyway, once that's done, Riku's going to hang out at the bridge around house 14. Just because it's close and away from the business in the center of town. And that's good right about now because he's got a lot on his mind. He has for a while now, it's just gotten more complicated lately.]

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[hazelrink.livejournal.com]

Riku... you don't get to pick when you're forgiven.

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Doesn't make things any easier. Sometimes forgiveness just complicate things, that's all.

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[hazelrink.livejournal.com]

No... that's not true, Riku.

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[hazelrink.livejournal.com]

[(S)he bites her lip, and then concludes they must press on] Forgiveness is a gift, it's something that everyone wants. It can't complicate things.

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

It can when you're jealous of that person.

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[hazelrink.livejournal.com]

Even then. Actually, it's more important that you don't reject it then, right?

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[fabrecation]

[Honestly? Luke's not sure if he should even reply. He's pretty sure Riku knows about him already, and that probably gives him a bad impression. Not to mention he's still a little upset by what Riku said to Xion...

But if there's one thing Luke can't do, it's holding a grudge. Looking at that reply, Luke finds he's not upset or angry, but... confused, even a little curious. He'd wanted forgiveness so badly when he screwed up, and here's someone who doesn't want it?

It takes some hesitation, but he finally gets to his question.]

Why don't you want forgiveness?

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[...The last person Riku ever wanted to talk to.

But he can't just ignore Luke, either. Give him a moment, and he'll respond, but he does sound a little tense here.]

I used to, but now everything's too complicated.

[Especially since he's extremely jealous, but that'd just be stupid of him to say to Luke. Ugh.]

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[fabrecation]

[Luke's a little tense, too, but only because he feels as if he's walking on eggshells. One wrong word and he might just cause an argument to flare up. That's probably the last thing Riku needs right now.]

I think you just... have to accept that they forgive you. You can't just throw it back in their face. [...] I didn't think I wanted forgiveness, for a while.

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

[Just have to accept it? Hah... Luke's probably right. It's not like he can control the feelings of others.]

Oh yeah?

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[fabrecation]

[Yeah, Luke's not about to tell Riku just what he'd done at home. But he can at least tell him this:]

... I did something terrible once. I didn't think I deserved forgiveness at all. So... it was really kind of weird, once I finally did get it. I didn't know what to do...

But it was still worth it. I don't think I could've really forgiven myself if I didn't get it from the others.

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[gravity-splode.livejournal.com]

Welllll, it's certainly not easy.

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah? And what would you know?

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[gravity-splode.livejournal.com]

What, you don't think I keep an ear to the ground sometimes?

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Just didn't expect to get advice from a Nobody.

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[gravity-splode.livejournal.com]

Haven't you heard to look where you never expect it?

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[soracles.livejournal.com]

Has it really been that long for you?

[because Sora still doesn't trust his ability to filter properly-- but he'll address those questions later. for now, he's approaching his best friend from behind, journal tucked under his arm.]

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Kind of crazy, huh?

[Stress or no stress, it's good to see Sora, and he loosens up a bit.]

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[soracles.livejournal.com]

Kinda, yeah. I was expecting you to get taller, too, to be honest.

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

What, you think I'll turn into a tree?

[He's grown! He just hasn't grown ten feet.]

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[soracles.livejournal.com]

You never know! But I'm gonna catch up with you if you're not careful.

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[erodingearth]

[He studies that filter for a little while before finally speaking.]

Why do you have to let go?

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

She's already found someone else. Besides, we barely even talk these days.

[Yep, relationship stuff. Crazy, no?]

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[erodingearth]

[Wow, little successor. Way to be a teenager.]

What do you think? Do you think it would be better? Or would it be easier?

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[stilldontgotit.livejournal.com]

Better than holding onto a grudge.

[Or using Luke as a scapegoat.]