43 - voice/action for castmates

[stilldontgotit]

[When Riku went to visit Sora that morning, he found nothing but an empty room. He didn't need to think twice to figure out what happened. And... heh, for the third time since he arrived in Luceti, too.

It's upsetting, but Riku tends to keep his feelings bottled up a lot of the time. Doesn't help that he's finally snapped out of experimental stupor and still feels... something. But that doesn't matter right now. Today, he's going to address the journal to spread the news. First, he'll address the others from their universe with a quick filter...]

[Filtered to House 39 (BBS house) // 100% Unhackable]

Guys, we should talk. That goes for all of you. Just drop by House 14, if you can. It should be visible now.

[/Filter]

[After they meet and discuss everything, he'll finally address the village at large.]

Looks like Sora's gone home again. I know he had a lot of friends, so I... just thought I'd pass it on.

[ooc: The whole cast may be responding to voice replies! Just a quick heads-up.]

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[ACTIONNNNN four house 14]

[perplexme]

[He's not going to verbally respond, but he will be quickening his pace to join her in the doorway and falling to his knees to join her. He folds his legs under him and stares into the empty room, knowing exactly what it is that Xion's thinking and feeling.

Without Axel and now without Sora...

...he shifts to bring his knees to his chest, using one arm to wrap around them and the other to rest a hand on Xion's shoulder.]

...what are we going to do?

[fourteen]

[ She finally moves. Finally she uncurls, but only to basically throw herself at him and wrap her arms around his shoulders and press her head to his.

There is no one, no one in this or any world, who would be able to understand how she feels right now but Roxas. And right now, she needs him the same way she needs air to breathe, and she just clings to him, trying not to break.

She's still not crying. ]

I don't know.

[perplexme]

[And he doesn't even hesitate to use that arm to move from her shoulder to grip right back. He can't look away from the empty room, but he's got to focus. He's got to focus on the conversation because right now? Xion was the only thing he had.

Unlike when Axel disappeared, Roxas finds himself unable to actually cry. He recognizes that it's the same feeling, that same, gut-wrenching emptiness, but he can't bring himself to do anything about it.]

...we're on our own. You know that, don't you? It's just you and me. [Not in the sense of people who will support them; Roxas knows better than to assume that. Xion had Luke and Sanji and all sorts of other friends, and he himself had Naoto...but none of them would ever understand. Even Ven won't understand. How can you make someone understand what it's like to lose a part of yourself? No. Not a part of yourself. Your original. It wasn't like losing a parent. It was like losing a portion of yourself, because without Sora's memories and Sora's guidance and Sora's very being, Roxas and Xion wouldn't exist, and he knows that.

And he knows there's no real way to express that to someone who wasn't used as a tool.]

[fourteen]

[ Oh.

Oh, well. Yes. That would do it.

All of a sudden she starts to cry. All the tears she never shed over Axel or Giles or the terrible fears she has about Luke. It almost hurts, when they slide down her face, like they're burning, before she realizes it's her eyes that hurt, her throat, her head. Her everything. Everything hurts. ]

I know.

[ She presses her face into his shoulder instead. ]

But that doesn't ... it doesn't make sense. Not like this. Not us, without them.

[ Them. Axel and Sora, of course. It goes without saying. ]

[perplexme]

[...oops. He's just going to cling a little tighter.]

We just...we have to work harder to make it make sense. [It's his default answer. He felt safer pretending to have a strategy. What good would it do to tell Xion that he was terrified of what was going to happen next and that he didn't understand any of it?]

They've gotta come back. Both of them.

[fourteen]

Even if they do, what if they don't remember? I don't... [ She trails off into silence, again. Darkness, it hurts. ]

[perplexme]

[...yeah, at least with him it's easier. Sora, of course, there's always the possibility that Sora won't know about him and that would really suck, but Axel...Axel always remembered him. But for someone like Xion...]

If they don't, I'll beat it into their memories. I'm not going to let them forget again.

[fourteen]

[ She actually smiles, though it's fleeting and sad. ]

Roxas, you can't just beat up every problem.

[perplexme]

And why not? That's worked out so far.

[fourteen]

Because there are some problems you can't fight.

[perplexme]

This one I'm going to fight as long as I can. It isn't fair...I'm not letting it be like this.

[fourteen]

Roxas... stop. You can't.

[perplexme]

...it's all I've got left. [It's all he can do without falling completely apart.] So what can I do? What can we do?

[fourteen]

... wait, Roxas. We have to just ... wait for them to come back.

[perplexme]

...I'm so tired of waiting. [But that's all he says. He knows she's right, and he knows he doesn't have to say she's right.]

[fourteen]

I know. Me, too. [ Xion just stays with him, tired down into her bones, and wishes it was better. ]

[perplexme]

[They're going to be down there for a while, aren't they.] ...wait with me then. Maybe...maybe it won't be so bad if we're waiting together.